My Life as His Bitch
"What a bitch!" one of them muttered.
"I'm a bitch?" I replied indignantly. "Just 'cause I've a life outside of work and can't stay for another drink?"
These guys really annoyed me, but I laughed and teased them back, rather than take offence at my work colleagues. They wanted me to stay on for their regular Friday evening piss-up at our favourite pub in Neal Street. They loved the back-stabbing and bitching, and the men were as bad as the women. They considered me 'stuck up', not a team player, just because I didn't want to get plastered every Friday night. But I needed to be home early on Friday evenings. There were things I simply had to do, and being called a bitch simply reminded me of what I had in store.
I quickly downed the remainder of my white wine spritzer, wished my work-mates an eventful weekend, and made a dash for Covent Garden tube. This station is one of those where you reach the platform using one of the room-sized elevators. If you're claustrophobic or averse to body odour you can always take the spiral staircase, but that's the equivalent to walking down a ten story building. At 6pm on a Friday, we (me and my fellow commuter drones) pack into the elevators like sardines, brusquely pushing against the unsuspecting American tourists in their raincoats.
Soon I was on the eastbound train, strap-hanging at first, but I found an empty seat as we pulled into Finsbury Park. For a typical Londoner like me, happiness is a seat on a rush-hour tube. I lifted my laptop case onto my lap, placed my arms firmly across it, and closed my eyes, lulled by the rocking rhythm of the train.
When we reached Southgate, I was so lost in thought I almost missed the stop. Ironic, considering how desperate I was to get home! Next was a fifteen-minute walk through leafy suburban streets. On a cold winter's night in pouring rain, the walk could sap anyone's spirit, but pleasant and light summer evenings like this one are quite pleaant.
"I'm home!" I called out as I walked in the front door of the bungalow.
"Okay!" came the perfunctory reply from the study. (Max works from home as a web developer, copy writer and all-round computer geek.)
I follow a set routine upon arriving home on Fridays: I head straight down the hallway into my room, kick off the medium heel shoes, and hang up the pin-striped skirt and jacket in the wardrobe. Blouse, bra, panties and stockings are tossed straight into the laundry basket. While the shower is warming, I wipe the lipstick and makeup from my face. I don't wear jewellery, only an antique leather-strapped watch. Max has mentioned buying me a necklace, but it hasn't happened. That's not entirely his fault as I haven't come across one I really want.
The power shower soon washed away the grime and perspiration of a humid London day. After shampooing my hair I smelt nice - like freshly bathed puppy, Max says. My bleached-blonde hair is a three-inch shaggy cut, easy to maintain providing I make regular trips to the hairdresser. The style suits me. I rinse, and towel my body and hair dry.
I stared at myself in the mirror, analysing the image as if looking at a stranger. The vestiges of my outwardly normal life are gone. A woman in her twenties, averagely attractive, neither fat nor thin, nice round breasts - plenty enough for a man like Max to do things to them.
From the bathroom I go straight into Max's bedroom where I find all I need. I spread out a towel on his king-size bed, not in the middle, but to one side. My pulse races, and my nipples firms up as if a sudden chill had blown in. I laid front-down onto the towel, careful not to mess up the smoothness of a freshly laundered duvet cover. Laying flat on the bed, the bedside cabinet was reachable if I stretched out my right arm. In the top drawer, my fingertips made contact with the unmistakable coolness of handcuffs immediately. They were, as expected, tucked in the nearest corner, one cuff neatly arranged on top of the other.
There's a radio wave baby monitor and speaker on the bedside cabinet which transmits through to Max's office. He must have been listening. "Cuff your wrists and wait quietly for me."
I didn't speak. The only sound he wanted to hear was the ratchets of the cuffs closing upon my wrists. I promptly obliged, locking my wrists together behind me.
I could feel the heaviness of the unforgiving cuffs holding my useless hands in the small of my back. There was nothing I could do to free myself - the only key I knew of was on Max's keyring. All kinds of feelings and memories were going through me. I found myself thinking of the strange event that got me into this situation. It took place about six months ago in another place. Very much another place. I was single and lived alone...
I have a confession. I was a self-bondage addict before I met Max - handcuffs, ropes neatly wrapped around my body, clamps and clothes pegs, that kind of thing. I could achieve an orgasm, or deny myself with equal facility, and without the complexities of a human relationship.
Yes, I was pretty good at self-bondage although it's not something one can usually boast about. However, one day I screwed up, fitting the handcuffs behind my back with both keyholes on the arm-side instead of the finger-side and that meant it was impossible for me to put the key in its tiny opening, even with the key in my hand it was hopeless. No matter how I tried I couldn't bend my fingers enough to push the key in the hole.
That evening, a Friday night, I learnt what could be done with one's hands cuffed, and what couldn't - such as untying the crotch rope biting into my pussy. I'd tied the crotch rope knots on my belly, well out of hand's reach. I imagined a sadistic jailor having his way with me. So fiendish with his knots that escape was impossible until he deigned to release me. But upon the realisation of my mistake my imaginary jailor disappeared, whilst his cruel bondage remained.
I went to the kitchen, catching a fleeting glance of my naked body and bound in the hall mirror.
At least I could sustain myself. I drank water straight from the tap after turning it on with my nose. Later I raided the refrigerator for cold food, which I ate off the kitchen floor like a dog... except dogs don't usually cry when they eat.
I'd only been in my rented flat for two weeks at the time of this self-bondage disaster. I didn't know any neighbours well enough to borrow a pint of milk, let alone ask them to release me from my kinky and rather sad bondage adventure. It was hardly the ideal time to introduce myself so I decided to suffer the night in my flat and call Patricia in the morning. It was either her, or wait until I was reported absent from work on Monday. Patricia, although insufferable, was my sister after all, and we already shared a secret or two. This would be another one.
I sat and watched television for hours, finally going to bed at 2 am, to endure my first full night in handcuffs. Sleep was fitful at best; I cried and sometimes got angry. Being a prisoner in chains wasn't as exciting as I imagined. My wrists began to chafe, my arms and shoulders ached, and the rope dissecting my pussy was a constant torment. I vowed to throw away of all my bondage paraphernalia as soon as I was free of it.
Somehow I slept, and suddenly it was 8 am. The morning sun, streaming in through the window, was a welcome sight. I felt pleased to have managed any sleep at all.
A hot drink and a cooked breakfast was out of the question, but I made myself a bowl of cornflakes, and knelt down to eat from the floor. My face was covered in milk. I wondered how it would feel if I was forced by some cruel master to eat that way. I could imagine his polished black shoes beside the bowl, daring me to splash milk upon them for the punishment that would bring. No doubt the fastidious owner of such shoes would have a purpose-built frame upon which he would secure me and whip me. I was surprised to find a tingle of arousal go through me. What a sick puppy I was!
At 9 am I phoned Patricia, asking her to come over straight away. As soon as she agreed I replaced the phone on the hook figuring that explanations would be easier to face to face. I paced the living room nervously, dreading what Patricia would say upon seeing me naked, handcuffed and with a rope around my waist and between my legs. I was planning to tell Patricia a lie, that a boyfriend had done this to me and had suddenly called into an emergence at work. I think he was a doctor... or something. She'd never believe me, but that didn't mean I couldn't stick to the story. I can be very stubborn.
The doorbell rang. Patricia had made it in better time than I expected. I turned my back to the door, hit the latch and pulled it open.
Then I screamed, and ran into the bedroom. I should really have kicked the door closed before I did so. A man came in, and instead of being scared off by my wailing, he had donned his metaphorical shining armour to help this accidental damsel in distress. He found me cornered and cringing on my bed.
"Are you alright?" he asked. "I'm your neighbour from upstairs. The sound proofing's not so good in these modern blocks. I heard you grunting and groaning last night. First I thought you were with somebody, but this morning I began to suspect you were alone and wondered if you were ill. So I came to check you were okay."
"I'm fine," I said from my hunched over position on the bed. I had longer dark hair back then, and it conveniently covered my face and most of my breasts.
"Do you want me to unlock your cuffs?"
"Yes please," I whimpered like a little child. "The key's on the table."
I expected him to gloat, perhaps to delay releasing me just to savour my embarrassment, but he unlocked the cuffs quickly and efficiently. I rubbed my wrists, appraising their reddened imprint of the handcuffs.
"How were you going free yourself if I hadn't turned up?" He asked, apparently unphased by the situation, and blatantly appraising my breasts. His smile told me he liked what he saw, and I must say the feeling was mutual, even though, because of my nakedness, he had a considerable head start.
The doorbell rang before I could answer his question.
"Oh shit," I cried.
"My sister! I asked her to come round as soon as possible."
I began to panic. My sister had no idea of my fixation with bondage, and I wanted to keep it that way. I don't know what possessed me, but I asked this acquaintance of five minutes, "Would you do me a big favour?"
He listened attentively, and agreed to my request. In short, he took pity on this wretch. While I put on my white towelling dressing gown, he answered the door.
It was Patricia. And Phil, her horrible creep of a boyfriend, had come too. I kept repeating to myself: "Act normal, act normal, act normal," like the mantra of a madwoman.
I could hear the conversation from the other side of the bedroom door while I freshened up.
"Hi. Is Rebecca in? She asked me to come round. It sounded important."
"Rebecca? She's in the bedroom getting dressed. Come in. Would you like a coffee?"
"Who are you?" Patricia asked coyly, "Has Becky got a new boyfriend?"
I heard the kettle being filled and switched on, and cupboard doors opening and closing as he searched for mugs and coffee. That's when I emerged from the bedroom, putting on a dishevelled, post-coital expression, acting like a girl who's boyfriend had just given her a morning seeing-to. Patricia didn't comment on it, but it amused my neighbour cum acting-boyfriend.
"So what was the urgent phone call about?" Patricia demanded.
I took over the coffee-making, busying myself in the kitchen to buy some time. "Phone call?"
Patricia put her hands on her hips. "Yes Becky, you phoned me. We got out of bed to come her because it sounded serious!"
"Serious? Yes, it is serious! Ummmm, the wedding I'm going to next week. I haven't a clue what to wear. I was hoping you could, you know, advise me."
Patricia, self-styled fashion guru, agreed that it was a serious matter. So serious that she volunteered to take me shopping that same afternoon.
"Are you going to the wedding too?" Patricia asked my neighbour.
"Maybe," he answered with a disarming smile. More questions followed, and more similarly vague answers were issued to Patricia's inquisition. I'd never known anybody to carry off 'maybes' with such confidence, or to imbue them with such meaning. Rather than making him seem vague, his non-committal answers made him come across as someone for whom anything was possible; an adventurer, a risk-taker, a man of mystery.
Patricia agreed to meet me in the Galleria at 1 pm, for shopping and girl-talk over lunch. She'd be wanting all the details on this new guy. Arrangements made, Patricia and Phil left immediately after drinking their coffee. I closed the door on them, turned around and leant back against it and almost slumped to the floor in sheer relief.
He spoke. "You realise they noticed the handcuff marks on your wrists when you reached up to the cupboard for coffee? You should have let me handle it."
"That's okay, they'll think you did it to me." I replied rather coldly. It was a mean thing to say, and I quickly recanted. "I'm sorry. You saved me from a major embarrassment. I don't know what I would do if my family ever found out. If you ever see them you must promise not to tell?"
"Maybe," he smiled, and paused to think for a moment. "So I could blackmail you then?"
"I don't earn very much."
"I wasn't thinking of money," he said with a sly smile. We stood face to face, but for his six-inch height advantage. I glanced up at him, making eye contact, and wondered if he was joking.
"Put your hands behind your back. I want to check something."
It sounded like a reasonable request, so I did, and kept them there as he pulled apart the tied bow of the dressing gown's waist cord. The gown fell open like a theatre curtain, displaying my breasts and pussy for his inspection.
He smiled. "Just as I thought. You're still wearing the crotch rope." He knew what it was called.
"The knots were too tight." I explained, "there wasn't time to undo it."
He gave an exaggerated sigh and knelt down in front of me.
I was too exhausted to protest, and stood with my hands held together behind me, imagining they were tied, as Max picked patiently at the mass of knots just below my navel. I felt ashamed, not for my self bondage but because of my untidy rope work.
"When is the wedding?" he asked as he pondered the knot.
Our eyes met. "Would you like me to accompany you?"
I smiled. "Maybe!"
END OF PART 1